There is no such thing as almost winning, no such thing as almost being somebody, you either are or you aren't. Life does not give you what you want or what you love; life gives what you fight for and what you accept. You win by getting the job done. Do you know what paying the price means? Paying the price means doing whatever you need to do to win, when you win then you've paid the price, until you win you haven’t paid the price.
If you want to win you've got to stand up and say "I’m so sick and tired of being average and ordinary". If you are going to win then you are going to have to change. The only way your future can be better than the past is that you've got to put conscious efforts in effecting the change. It’s going to be up to you, it’s in your hands and if you don’t change, the next 5 years is going to be like the last 5 years. Now isn't that depressing? Embrace change, and change for the better.